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“Have you read the book yet?” my friend Arliss asked. “No, but I’m still coming to book club.” I answered. “Why haven’t you read it?” “The subject’s depressing and it’s a graphic novel.  I’ve never read a graphic novel in my life.” “You haven’t?” “No.” “Don’t you like comics?” “Sure, but not a whole book of them.” “Oh don’t be a prima read it. It won’t take more than a day or two.” Not wanting to be deemed high maintenance I picked up the book that afternoon.  It was Roz […]

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Flip-Flopped

It was Friday the 13th and I woke up feeling emotional.  It’d been a restless night and before I could get a cup of coffee I was in tears.  In a few hours I’d be sitting in Chase’s last IEP meeting which suddenly felt like a nightmare to me.  After 15 years of hating these meetings you’d think I’d be ecstatic to be so close to done, but instead I couldn’t hold it together. I didn’t know what to make of it so after asking some friends to pray for […]

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First To Fight

He had a standard issue camouflage bag.  When he hoisted it into the overhead bin you could see he was nervous.  He sat down next to me accidentally dropping his phone and tickets into my lap because his hands were full. “I’m sorry,” he said. “No worries let me take that,” I said.  “Thank you,” he said handing me his barely worn dress hat while searching for his seatbelt. When he found both straps I noticed he stared at the buckle for a minute.  His hands were shaking.  The guy […]

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Hot Wheel’d

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“I’m sorry,” she said with an exasperated look.  “They can’t keep their hands off each other.” “They’re not bothering me—I know what its like,” I said. She smiled as if to say thank you. Her pair of boys had stopped swinging each other around like airplanes and moved on to tugging at her. Not getting the attention he wanted the youngest looked at me—his Chestnut eyes and mop of curly hair winning me over right away. He presented the Hot Wheels car in his palm and motioning toward his mother […]

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A Gift For A King

“Mom, what’s something you’d like for Christmas,” he asked. Luke had the day off from work and I got the impression he was headed out shopping. “I don’t know,” I said.  I’ve had a hard time coming up with a list this year.  I have everything I need.” “Well, is there something you’d just like?” “I like so many things even that’s hard,” I said. I could see that I needed to come up with something.  Luke, while not a penny finder like his brother, is still very thoughtful. I […]

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Fender Bended

Fender Bended

“Um—pardon me Mom,” he said nervously.  “On the way to school something happened to the car.” This sentence, that no parent wants to hear, pulled me off the couch. “What?”  I asked trying to stay calm. “I was coming down the hill and I must have misjudged the distance because I hit the car in front of me.” “What?” I said again with as much impact as his crash.  “On the way to school?” “Come look,” he said. The calm Zen-like vibe that had surrounded my writing evaporated as my […]

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Daniel My Brother

I woke up at a loss for words.  That wouldn’t necessarily be bad as I tend to be wordy, but on a day when you’re supposed to know what to say it’s a problem.  That night at youth group I’d been asked to talk to my friend Daniel about a big change in his life.  It was time for him to graduate out of our group and into other opportunities—something I knew he wouldn’t be happy about. Like his peers he’s glad to be done with school but letting go […]

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50 Shades Wiser

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My Mom was the first to tease me today with an over-the-hill joke and my brother quickly followed on her heels. I took it well though but prior to this I’d been dreading the big day for this reason. I knew the jokes were coming. I told some friends I was out with last week when they asked that I just wanted to get it over with. I smiled when I said it but there was a pit in my stomach—just talking about it at dinner made me nauseous. I […]

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Looks Like

After breakfast when Buddy started circling my feet I knew he was hoping a walk was in the plan.  It’s hard to say no to his bearded face but I wanted to.  I’d woken up exhausted. The boys noticed it. When Luke asked me how I’d slept I said, “Not very well.” “Why?” he asked. “I have a lot on my mind,” I said. “Are you worried about something?” “Oh yeah.” “What?” he asked. “You.” A wide-eyed silence fell between us while he decided if he wanted to ask another […]

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The Right Word At the Right Time

We were rolling out our mats when the lady next to me said, “I hate the long holds.” I laughed knowing that’s what we were in for. “I don’t mind anymore,” I said trying to be upbeat.  “I had an MRI yesterday and when the tech pulled me out of the tube she asked if I did yoga.  When I said yes, she said she thought that was why I was able to be still for so long.  Yep, I’m good at corpse pose I told her.” With that I […]

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