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The appointment card sat on my desk for three months. Over those months various penny finds would sit next to it.  Each one had a story I kept meaning to write but couldn’t take past the idea stage.  I’d jot some notes but the page would stare back at me just like that card.  Fatigue is to blame for the writer’s block.  The demands of carrying for my aging mother while helping my kid’s transition into adult life are taking their toll. I could have moved the card. Put it […]

The appointment card sat on my desk for three months. Over those months various penny finds would sit next to it.  Each one had a story I kept meaning to write but couldn’t take past the idea stage.  I’d jot some notes but the page would stare back at me just like that card.  Fatigue is to blame for the writer’s block.  The demands of carrying for my aging mother while helping my kid’s transition into adult life are taking their toll. I could have moved the card. Put it [...]Keep reading...

Communion

“Park right there,” she said pointing to a vacant spot between two large vehicles. “Sharon parks over there and I park here.” “Are your names on the spaces?” I asked. “Not officially.” “What about your pew?” “They should be,” she said not missing a beat. It was nice to start the morning with a few laughs after a rough couple weeks. My sweet Mama was in a car accident just before Christmas that totaled her car.  After 65 years of driving with a spotless record it was time to hand […]

“Park right there,” she said pointing to a vacant spot between two large vehicles. “Sharon parks over there and I park here.” “Are your names on the spaces?” I asked. “Not officially.” “What about your pew?” “They should be,” she said not missing a beat. It was nice to start the morning with a few laughs after a rough couple weeks. My sweet Mama was in a car accident just before Christmas that totaled her car.  After 65 years of driving with a spotless record it was time to hand [...]Keep reading...

Prime of My Life

When the caller ID showed it was my friend Sandy I grabbed a tissue. I knew why she was calling so I expected to get a little weepy. I’d texted her the night before to ask for prayer. At one point in the conversation I heard myself say, “I’ve gotten to the point I dread my birthday. Some big meltdown always happens.” While that sounds like an overly dramatic fatigue fueled statement I could make a list of the eventful things that have happened in the last ten Octobers to […]

When the caller ID showed it was my friend Sandy I grabbed a tissue. I knew why she was calling so I expected to get a little weepy. I’d texted her the night before to ask for prayer. At one point in the conversation I heard myself say, “I’ve gotten to the point I dread my birthday. Some big meltdown always happens.” While that sounds like an overly dramatic fatigue fueled statement I could make a list of the eventful things that have happened in the last ten Octobers to [...]Keep reading...

Axis Mundi

Two days before Luke was to be baptized the pastor doing the honors told me about a dream she’d had. We worked together and I trusted God spoke to her this way so it didn’t feel weird. I say this because up to that point in my parenting journey I’d had plenty of people tell me they had a “word” about my kids. This really amounted to a way to “fix them”—as if they’re broken. That’s part of the ride when you have kids with special needs. Pastor Marilyn’s message […]

Two days before Luke was to be baptized the pastor doing the honors told me about a dream she’d had. We worked together and I trusted God spoke to her this way so it didn’t feel weird. I say this because up to that point in my parenting journey I’d had plenty of people tell me they had a “word” about my kids. This really amounted to a way to “fix them”—as if they’re broken. That’s part of the ride when you have kids with special needs. Pastor Marilyn’s message [...]Keep reading...

Spin Cycle

At the intersection of Clark and Atherton there was a gas station, 7-Eleven, and Laundromat. A five acre dirt field separated our house from this strip mall. It was filled with gopher holes so it wasn’t smart to run across it for a Slurpee. With laundry you’d have to drive the long way around. We didn’t have a garage so we had to load and unload our car parked on the street. My job was to help with this—and clean out the dryer vents. I thought this was the best […]

At the intersection of Clark and Atherton there was a gas station, 7-Eleven, and Laundromat. A five acre dirt field separated our house from this strip mall. It was filled with gopher holes so it wasn’t smart to run across it for a Slurpee. With laundry you’d have to drive the long way around. We didn’t have a garage so we had to load and unload our car parked on the street. My job was to help with this—and clean out the dryer vents. I thought this was the best [...]Keep reading...

Killin’ It

Coffee in hand I gingerly lowered myself down on the couch and covered up with a blanket. The sun had just come up but I’d been awake for five hours already lying flat as a pancake. The pain radiating through my back couldn’t be silenced. My sweetie asked, “Are you okay.” “No.” “What do you think is wrong?” “It feels like someone hit me in the back with a sledgehammer.” “Have you tried stretching?” “Yes.” “I’m sorry,” he said. “Maybe you need to call the doctor. You’ve had so much […]

Coffee in hand I gingerly lowered myself down on the couch and covered up with a blanket. The sun had just come up but I’d been awake for five hours already lying flat as a pancake. The pain radiating through my back couldn’t be silenced. My sweetie asked, “Are you okay.” “No.” “What do you think is wrong?” “It feels like someone hit me in the back with a sledgehammer.” “Have you tried stretching?” “Yes.” “I’m sorry,” he said. “Maybe you need to call the doctor. You’ve had so much [...]Keep reading...

Aisle 3

It was the morning after and with only about an hour’s sleep I needed espresso.  I stopped at the supermarket to get a Starbucks before heading to my Mom’s.  I looked like a shell of myself.  When I was ordering someone brushed past me in the line.  It was a slim man with a baseball cap and for a minute I thought it was my brother.  It would be just like him to give me a shoulder check when he walked by. I did a double take and watched him […]

It was the morning after and with only about an hour’s sleep I needed espresso.  I stopped at the supermarket to get a Starbucks before heading to my Mom’s.  I looked like a shell of myself.  When I was ordering someone brushed past me in the line.  It was a slim man with a baseball cap and for a minute I thought it was my brother.  It would be just like him to give me a shoulder check when he walked by. I did a double take and watched him [...]Keep reading...

Mama’s Girl

  Monday, I found myself standing in the garage staring at the refrigerator wondering what I wanted out of it.  I opened the door and stared at the contents and nothing jumped out.  Butter, eggs, or more milk which one?  It certainly couldn’t be the white wine it was only nine in the morning.  I don’t even like white wine so I’m not sure why it’s in there? In the thirty steps between my kitchen and the garage fridge I’d completely forgotten what I was headed to get.  After what […]

  Monday, I found myself standing in the garage staring at the refrigerator wondering what I wanted out of it.  I opened the door and stared at the contents and nothing jumped out.  Butter, eggs, or more milk which one?  It certainly couldn’t be the white wine it was only nine in the morning.  I don’t even like white wine so I’m not sure why it’s in there? In the thirty steps between my kitchen and the garage fridge I’d completely forgotten what I was headed to get.  After what [...]Keep reading...

Valued

  I had some time to kill downtown so I went to Enstrom’s to have some tea and watch the toffee being made.  When I reached in my wallet to pay I was a penny short.  This is when I noticed the gal behind the counter’s name—Karin.  I’ve seen her countless times before but never caught the nametag. “Oh don’t worry about the penny.  I’ve got some right here,” Karin said reaching into a spare penny cup she’d tucked away behind the register. “Thank you.  It’s ironic for me to […]

  I had some time to kill downtown so I went to Enstrom’s to have some tea and watch the toffee being made.  When I reached in my wallet to pay I was a penny short.  This is when I noticed the gal behind the counter’s name—Karin.  I’ve seen her countless times before but never caught the nametag. “Oh don’t worry about the penny.  I’ve got some right here,” Karin said reaching into a spare penny cup she’d tucked away behind the register. “Thank you.  It’s ironic for me to [...]Keep reading...

Side-Hugs

I was dreading it. As April came to a close I didn’t want to turn the calendar thinking if life could just idle the engine of time would stall out.  The greeting card displays all over town told me that wasn’t likely.  The melting snow on the Grand Mesa confirmed it.  Mother’s Day was going to happen. The Friday beforehand it was finally time to acknowledge it so I stopped at the store to buy some flowers for my Mom. I chose a small arrangement in a green mason jar.  […]

I was dreading it. As April came to a close I didn’t want to turn the calendar thinking if life could just idle the engine of time would stall out.  The greeting card displays all over town told me that wasn’t likely.  The melting snow on the Grand Mesa confirmed it.  Mother’s Day was going to happen. The Friday beforehand it was finally time to acknowledge it so I stopped at the store to buy some flowers for my Mom. I chose a small arrangement in a green mason jar.  [...]Keep reading...
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